Monday, December 12, 2022

Still Fighting my Demons

I know no one will read this since I haven't posted on my blog in some years. But just wanted to say that my mental health has been a on and off cycle. An I do my best to deal with it. It can be hard but I try my best. 

I plan to keep fighting my demons one day at a time. And try to journal has well but even with that it's a bit hard...so I may come back to blogging. Answering a question to help me get my day out of my mind, haven't fully quite decided yet. But it is nice to post on here again. 

How was your day? What were the highlights – and what didn’t go well?

My day was okay. 
Highlights of the day:
> I finally cooked that PF Changs Sweet and Sour chicken with Jasmine rice.
> Deciding to sleep in my room instead of the couch.

Didn't go well:
> Late for work again, overslept. 

Friday, October 23, 2020

Update! On other blog. :)

 Hey all! Hope y'all are well. Quarantine has had me on & off on things but I'm reworking on updating my other blog when I can. Since I'm back at work & I'm working on getting things settled for college. So I'll be busy but still will make time for this fun project.

Link to blog (changed the name of it): https://myfinalthoughtsonitall.blogspot.com/




Tuesday, July 7, 2020

Still alive, just working on a new blog

Hello all~
Probably no one will read this but I've been working on another blog & I really want to try and keep up with it.

Check it out here:
https://myfinalthoughtsonitall.blogspot.com/

Yes, short post.
Stay Safe & Wash Your Hands!



Tuesday, September 24, 2019

Making A 2nd Blog

Hello all~

Some of you have probably forgotten about me but that's okay. Anywho, I'm trying my best to eat right, get sleep (trying), & going to therapy when I can (technically I always need to go but I've had some days where I didn't go cause I was unwell.)

I'm making this post so that it's know that my Blog is still active but I'm using it as a check list of things I want to accomplish this year. And if I don't then hopefully next year. ^_^;

Also, I plan to make a 2nd blog. Why? Why when I know I can't manage two blogs cause I've tried? Here's the kicker. It'll be private & only for me. Reason being....the app I use to use to upload collages of my photos is now gone. And I don't want to use Instagram that much...plus my phone runs out of space so damn fast from me taking so many freaking photos.

I want to just upload all the photos as one post them screenshots as another and if I have gifs or videos I want to upload those as well for another post. But it'll be as like parts for that day.

So I'm basically gonna make my own little Photo Journal/Diary on here. I know I could probably use an app for that but ain't nobody got time for that. :-D

One last this, FALL IS HERE! But it's sadly still humid where I am...it sucks...it's always like this. =_=


Thursday, January 17, 2019

I'm Still Alive. Hello 2019. Let's Get Shit Done!

Hello all (mainly to the ones that still have a Blogger account or readers in general).

So even though we're on the 17th Day of January, I've had a lot happen.
But that's not why I'm posting today. I'm posting today to type up a Huge Ass To Do List that I want to complete this year! So here we go!



  1. Complete (or attempt) the writing/drawing challenge (I have made for myself for the whole month of January). You can find it here: https://twitter.com/LazyMusician10/status/1079799174995038208
  2. Make payments again to Ai (I want to at least pay off $2,000.00 or more this year)
  3. Pay  off my Credit Card Bill ( I owe $1,000.00  + change )
  4. GET A NEW JOB! Work my ass off to pay things & keep going!
  5. Focus on me & do a good job of Journaling everyday!
  6. Go to my Doctors appointment this month & keep up with appointments there after.
  7. Attend Anime Matsuri & have a great time; set aside $500.00 or more for it ( I did already buy a Superpass last year.)
  8. KEEP READING! Whether it be a physical book or audiobook! Consume myself in it!
  9. FOR THE LOVE OF GOSH SAKE1 BUY NEW HEADPHONES! Buy them: https://www.sudio.com/us/earbuds/niva-black
  10. Lastly, Not to Myself: There's nothing wrong with you! Be accepting of your sexuality & your personality. In the past a lot of people didn't' like you because your smart & your personality was so damn out there! Well screw them! BE YOU & BE PROUD! I'm an Ambivert, I can be a Sherlock & a John, my mood swings shift but I'll ride or die for my friends & keep them safe, & I'm not straight! Never will be! Though I was bisexual for years but figure out I was Pansexual in 2018. I've noticed all my life I like a person for there personalities & there talents or passions. Yes I like looks, but what's the point of looking beautiful or handsome if you have an awful attitude. Or that person is rude as hell or has a bad personality & isn't a good person. That's what I'll fall for, then looks. But love isn't on the table, focus on your goals. Paying shit off, getting back into college, get that degree, graduation trip, travel, internships, find a place to call home, & then adopt one kid. (This is my life goal, this last thing on the list.)

That's all I have to say for now, thank you for reading. ^_^
 
 

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Kepping Thoughts or Memories




Time Currently of Started Typing: 11:04am

Morning to all, if it's not morning, I hope you have a lovely night.

I had a thought this morning about something. I started Journaling earlier this February and I wanted to try it out. Because majority of the people I follow on YouTube do some journaling or show off these cool journaling techniques they do. Which I found so fascinating and wanted to try out. But today, as I've noticed, I haven't written in it in like two days. So It's like playing catch up in a journal I spent a day on  (sometime last week) rewriting some things in it to make it look decent. Not fancy cause I don't have all those fancy pens or whatever. Then it hit me..why do I always change my mind with how I write about my day or something I find interesting?

In the past, as a kid I kept a diary. I had two, one I used for drawing and the other I used for writing down my thoughts. But after my mom found it and read something I wrote personal to my face, I got in trouble for it. After that experience I always feared keeping a diary because I felt that same thing would happen again. So if I felt a certain way, I would just draw it out as a kid or keep to myself. All those thoughts and emotions all bottled up &can't write or talk to anyone (didn't have friends as a kid..not really) cause I feared of being in trouble again. It wasn't until high school when I knew I forgot a lot of things but I didn't want to..plus I did take a lot of pictures and I wanted to share them. I even started writing down about my day while at school! All that paper...an with all that paper a family member can think of it as trash and throw it all out. Those are my memories, I don't want them trashed.

Wasn't until after I read volumes 1 and 2 of Koko Ni Iru Yo! that I figured, why not start blogging. At the time, the only social media I had was Myspace. The only thing I could check was my email at school but when it came to anything internet wise (reading manga, watch anime, or play online games) I couldn't do til the weekend. For school came first before everything else. An down the line I had my blog, stopped using Myspace, made a facebook, no longer have Snapchat, made a twitter, and then made an instagram account, and also have a My365 account (post a photo a day), and even a Fluther account (to ask questions).

With all these social medias, it just makes me think "Damn, I have a lot. Do I really need all this?" Which leads me back to the whole Journaling concept. Journaling is really becoming a thing, to help you disconnect from social media & staring at the screen to worsen your eye sight. It's a way for you to open up more and if you want to share it you can. Me telling you guys about my day or personal life is my choice. It helps me remember and helps me share it with others because you might be going through what I'm going through. So you understand we might not be the same but we can come to a conclusion we understand one another on the situation at had. Which leads me to other ways of keeping up with your thoughts or memories.

Others might not even write it out or type it out. Some people express there thoughts or memory keeping with photos or videos. Which leads to the other social medias like: YouTube (make videos about anything or vlogging it), Snapchat (to post little bits of your life with people), Instagram (post photos or videos about anything or anyone or yourself), or even Facebook (same rules apply hear). Anyone can use anything to express themselves, there thoughts, or there memories if they want to keep them, discard them, or share them. It's all up to that person.

For me, in the past I was happy with just blogging, my email, my My365 account, online gaming, and rarely checking facebook cause I only needed it to keep in touch with friends. But times have truly changed from back then. Even if I feel like I have a lot of social medias, in the end, if I had to choose only three social medias or apps to keep is Twitter, Blogger, and my My365 account. That's it. Well I do have a LinkedIn account (need that cause of "jobs") so that another important one to mainly keep in general.

The main thing I need to do this year is: "Try to stay positive, stay focused, and get what needs to be done..done." I know it'll take time to do all the things I'm trying to accomplish this year but I want you guys along the journey with me. I'm going to do better, I really am, with everything.

Thanks for reading my long little thought process there. But once I set my mind to something, I'm going to do it you guys. I can promise you that, I hope everyone has an amazing day.

P.S. I might just keep this post typed, I might not audio blog it at all..but just for backup purposes I think I still do it. You never know what may happen to my blog. Not saying that anything will..but it's always good to have a backup. :)     (I'll add the audio after I post this.)

Time Currently of Finished Typing: 11:33am